Reluctance...

It has been some time since I have left the last path, but though it is "over" I had yet to embark on the next spoke in my wheel's journey. Honestly I believe I've been putting it of, but really it wasn't "quite time". Now I believe I can put forward all that I need to and really go and step forward. The Path of Fire beckons to me to come towards its fiery light...

On another note, before I take my first steps towards this path I had decided to draw a card from a new deck, "The Heart of Faerie". The Lady of Faith (reversed) came to me today. I think that it says plainly that I need to have more faith in myself and the way that I am taking. I don't need to worry or second guess the decisions I'm making.

Having little or lacking faith makes the roads seem ever more dangerous, for even in the darkest of times the light of faith burns brightly to show us the way.

The other messages of this card show the need for belief not only in others and greater things but oneself. And perhaps the most important part of belief - openness. While you may not agree or believe as another does you can still be open to the existence of their thoughts, feelings, and beliefs. It denotes a mutual understanding and respect and is a trait that should be better cultivated. The fact that this card is reversed means to me that the energy is blocked, there is an even more dire need for it here because to see it upright says that it is present or needs to be present, for it to be reversed it is missing and needed.

To me this means altogether that before I can go any further with anything I must believe in myself, others, and all that is around me both great and small. Things will turn out as they will.

The End of the Path of Water...

Time has gone by and a lot of learning has occurred. My psychism has developed to a degree more. I've had some past life memories, more communications from the spirits around me and I feel more connected. I felt the pull for the time to change last night, and even did some transitioning in what I was wearing that symbolized the need to move on to the next path.

Reflecting over what I've learned it's been a wonderful and insightful journey and I expect to learn more even after leaving this path in regards to it. All of the paths are interactive and affect one another.

This path has meant inspiration as well as intuition for me, connection to the Divine Feminine and our inner psychic nature. It relates to all of the symbols that can be associated with the female and goddess energy, as well as the heart chakra, love (of the Self, family, friends, and all others). It connects to the element of Water and the color Green (but also any of the colors of love - red, white, and pink). The symbol in my personal Chaos Star is the bow and arrow of cupid, tipped in gold, white white dove feathers.

Psychic "Episode" - Another Past Life Bleed Through

It hurts, so badly, so much...the screams the torment. I'm so sorry, and I understand all too well why you've forgotten, why you have no desire to remember.

The torment, the scars, they are too deep - but you buried them, left them way and ignored. But you can't hide anymore. You can't look away, even though it burns your eyes. Hush little child, daughter of mine. Be still, breathe deep, slow, even. Let the darkness come and relax, the light will come. The storm will be over soon...just sleep...just rest...

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I see her huddled up on the floor, knees drawn up hands covering her head. I hear an anguished scream, it's like the wail of a soul crying out from utter torture...it echoes.

She is so sad and it hurts so much...

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This is the second time I can "peg" a 'Past Life Bleed Through' happening. The first time was strong, and intense but much less specific. I could feel the "pull" but couldn't identify it more strongly. I ended up getting a reading for confirmation and the information given confirmed what I thought it was referring to.

I have had Blue Obsidian on my Third Eye and it seems to have helped with the processing of the information a bit better. It was feeling like my Third Eye Chakra was clamped shut and that something was trying to pry it open with a crowbar - very disconcerting feeling! Lately I have been getting a lot of clairsentience in regards to my Third Eye, feeling buzzing or pressure and then feeling the need to do some intuitive work or having received some sort of message.