Confessions & Concerns

Although it is well meaning that is not to say that it will come as it ought to...but now I sit here pondering, alone while my significant other is downstairs sulking away - myself doing the same thing up here. It has been a long week for us both, but I find that he seems to forget that things could be hard for other people outside of himself. Becoming exasperated when I pick up on his own feelings and react to them, forcing him to face them rather than pretend they're not there.

And so it is again an uphill struggle it seems and honestly it is very tiring. I wish nothing but the best for him - but I see him constantly struggling, making the same mistakes out of habit and merely miring himself more deeply into whatever doldrums or just trying to mask them behind a facade of, "I'm okay." But clear as crystal he is transparent and only seems to get more aggravated when that is pointed out to him.

I have long since tired of the way my own bad and negative moods have affected me. For like any vicious cycle, they merely feed on themselves, ever-reproducing. So finally I had enough and I have since made an honest effort to Do something about it. And for the most part it is working and I am feeling better and better about my life and attracting just what I want and more. But when I try to urge him to do such things he resists and scoffs and I usually give up defeated.

So while I have no intent to force anything on him, I want more for him ... what to do *le sigh*